WINGLESSxANGEL

Am I alright? What am I doing? What's the reason of me being here? The person that I love the most is married to another guy. My family is broken. I've lost my best friend/dog. I don't have time to paint. I'm stuck with my business that doesn't seems to grow. I act as if everything is ok during the night but I cry every night. I'm so tired....

yosh! long time no see! how's everyone?! Yes i have not been doing painting for along time! and all the painting that I promise that I'll do is never done. ai... working life over here is real busy. so I took photography. There for i can hangout with friends while doing art. It's really harder then it looks. and I have lotsa equipment and lens that i hope i can get. looking for anyone who can give me some tips. photoshop post processing and stuff.

I seems to watch alotsa anime lately. Must be making back for those time when I didn't watch any. I watch Haruhi Suzumiya which I have it with me for a long time but haven't watch it up until now. It's AWESOME!! Haruhi is so cute and the story is so freaky. I started without knowing any of the story line or what kinda anime it is. I thought it's just anime about some school girls and therefore when Nagato say that she's an alien I'm like WTF?!! and wow.. this is kinda interesting.. lol! Can't wait for the 2nd season if there is any. GOtta be one of my favorite. Then I watch 'Welcome to NHK'. not bad. Kinda funny especially when that guy learn about porn on the internet. lol! He really remind me of my self which is kinda freaky. Then I got my self gunslinger girl.... I couldn't finish it. It's really boring. Not bad but just not my type. SO I skip to Persona. Not bad but the ending kinda confusing. And the Macross Frontier!! wow!!! I can't decide which is better! the original Macross or Macross Frontier. I can't believe they actually made a good macross after the original one! The sound track is great! Love the 'Shunkuu no Diamond Crevasse'. Feel like crying listening to it. And Love, do you remember. ouch! The first time it was play in the anime it remind me alotsa stuff and makes me wanna break into tears. And finally just got my self a bluray of Paprika. nice animation and crazy storyline! just my type! kakakkaa!! Starting to watch Casshern Sins now.... kinda cool. wondering if I should get kurokami. oh yeah! just watch Sword of the stranger. eh not bad. not perfect but not bad as well. >.<

Hei Hei, It's chinese new year so Gong Xi Fa Chai!! I've been away from my art for a long time. I'm getting more serious in my actual work. Since I'm not loved, and I my dream is unreachable so I'll want some money instead. A few quit their job a my work place and some going to retired soon and I finally got some real work to do. I got a raise too!
I haven't given up thought. I've stop doing digital cause I know that's not me and I stop doing traditional as well. Just don't feel like doing it anymore. 'You and I' will most likely be the last. But I'm actually working on 1 painting. It's something that bring me into art at the first place. It's what i did when I was in high school. It's the real me. But I have a hard time working on it cause all the traditional watercolor landscape and portrait painting really doesn't help at all. And they actually make it harder. Plus I'm busy at work. 6 days a week. Almost 10 hours each day. Might not be much for some people but for me, it's alot! And I got 1 free day and really wanna hangout with friends. And what about my video games and anime!!?! I've actually finish the pencil part... but haven't got the mood for the coloring yet...

I LOVE ANIME AND WATERCOLOR!!!

THanks for all ya support when I'm hurt. SOrry that I didn't reply all of the msg. I was busy finishing a painting. I really appreciate you guys! thanks!